You have been very successful, bb, so don't feel down so much about a backslide. Yes, it sucks, but you are also acknowledging it and that is the first step to reverse it. We all understand backslides like that so you're in safe company admitting it. /hugs

Maybe find a new activity that will just get you back active first and that can lead you back to the healthy train? Or maybe this week you eat all the "bad" foods in the house and redo your cabinets and fridge with good, healthy food you like? Something to just refresh yourself and your mind?